... there is some "magical" connection betwen me and Ireland... some quiet understanding. It's something beyond any man's eye, something that can be only seen by heart and heard by soul.
If there is anyway we live more than once on this planet, I must've been a fairy creature, a red hair irish girl or a sheep runnig through the fields.
I really don't care if it cold and moist, and it's raining... most of the time.
I don't mind the dirt, the weird constructions andthe fact, that there are no more fairies in there....for me it's perfect...
so I'll go... and I'll embrace once again my Ireland...
Saturday, September 4, 2010
the Fortuneteller
last wednesday I went with some friends to see..into the future.
It was the second time I did it and as an cynical optymist I still have left some place for "reasonable doubt" But it felt kind'a nice to have some insight, even if it's a bit too much to say.
Anyway... maybe...just maybe I will actually find some happiness for longer than a blink of an eye...
so "I wish upon a star..." and go to ireland... for a while...
It was the second time I did it and as an cynical optymist I still have left some place for "reasonable doubt" But it felt kind'a nice to have some insight, even if it's a bit too much to say.
Anyway... maybe...just maybe I will actually find some happiness for longer than a blink of an eye...
so "I wish upon a star..." and go to ireland... for a while...
Saturday, June 26, 2010
the Marshall
When it comes to important "Things" in my life, there is no other person so picky as I am.
One of these Things is music, or maybe I should say sounds of all kind. My life is a mosaic made of billions of glasses joined by all my senses to a great picture.
And sounds are one of the best joints to connect people and events and feelings in one great memory. For any period in my life there is a song, sound...
I remember as I was a kid, learning what music is, trying out those different beats, sound, melodies... so crazy. I never felt connected to just one artist, but if a song hit my ears and my heart it just stayed with me forever. There were songs to dance to, to fall in or out of love, to think, to laugh or cry, to make love or just have sex, to learn, to be angry... anything you want. ( Try to imagine the piles of Lp's, MP's, CD's... Thank You God for MP3!)
But to get my atention the song must have this undescribed something, that will grow on me and it does not happen often that few songs of one artist in the row will be The Songs.
And guess what... three songs in a row... and if that was not enough ... it was is an artist, that never really hit me... OK I like few..really few of his songs, and must objectively say, his voice gives me shivers... ( as I said...sounds are important), but I never really liked his work...
Did He got sooo damn good with his "Recovery" or is it my re-discovery...
Anyway... if all the pieces on that disc are this good...well Mr. Mathers you got yourself a new fan.
Eminem : Now Playing : Not Afraid
One of these Things is music, or maybe I should say sounds of all kind. My life is a mosaic made of billions of glasses joined by all my senses to a great picture.
And sounds are one of the best joints to connect people and events and feelings in one great memory. For any period in my life there is a song, sound...
I remember as I was a kid, learning what music is, trying out those different beats, sound, melodies... so crazy. I never felt connected to just one artist, but if a song hit my ears and my heart it just stayed with me forever. There were songs to dance to, to fall in or out of love, to think, to laugh or cry, to make love or just have sex, to learn, to be angry... anything you want. ( Try to imagine the piles of Lp's, MP's, CD's... Thank You God for MP3!)
But to get my atention the song must have this undescribed something, that will grow on me and it does not happen often that few songs of one artist in the row will be The Songs.
And guess what... three songs in a row... and if that was not enough ... it was is an artist, that never really hit me... OK I like few..really few of his songs, and must objectively say, his voice gives me shivers... ( as I said...sounds are important), but I never really liked his work...
Did He got sooo damn good with his "Recovery" or is it my re-discovery...
Anyway... if all the pieces on that disc are this good...well Mr. Mathers you got yourself a new fan.
Eminem : Now Playing : Not Afraid
the plan
was to have a plan, but as usual my plans never work out...
For few last days I've been thiking on my options. Looks like I'm a really lucky girl, for I have 3 of them as I write.
1. Staying where I am, accepting my promotion to team leader and not moving my a... anywhere in the next few years ( concerning that I actually moved at least once a year for past 10 years, and the fact that here's just me and my dog ...)
2. Moving to Ireland - there is a job (good one) waiting for me, and some really dear friends
3. Going back where I came from, to a job, that I liked...a lot(just the money were not enough to live of it on my own)...but having my closest family and my Godson just few blocks away...
Writing a list of pros and cons did not help...
any ideas...?
For few last days I've been thiking on my options. Looks like I'm a really lucky girl, for I have 3 of them as I write.
1. Staying where I am, accepting my promotion to team leader and not moving my a... anywhere in the next few years ( concerning that I actually moved at least once a year for past 10 years, and the fact that here's just me and my dog ...)
2. Moving to Ireland - there is a job (good one) waiting for me, and some really dear friends
3. Going back where I came from, to a job, that I liked...a lot(just the money were not enough to live of it on my own)...but having my closest family and my Godson just few blocks away...
Writing a list of pros and cons did not help...
any ideas...?
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
the battle
5.30 am... beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!
"Come on, you got to get up, got to go to work, come on.. it's tuesday... just 4 more days ... you can make it... come on! open your eyes! the dog's trying to scratch his way out ...open the damn eyes!...
Ok..
You're still sleeping!...Come on girl! things ain't gonna do themselves! brush the teeth! FACE... wash the face... an idiot! Dear lord... don't look in the mirror! not yet...hurrrrrrrrrrrrry! Good... just wear what you want... but you have 5 minutes left to feed the dog and get to work...shit where's the dog! Would be better with at least one eye open...damn... ok... gonna make it... somehow... anyway... ok...sh.. shoes! ufff..."
Long story short...
Free will is no good when it comes to choosing between staying in bed and going to work and strong will doesn't always win!
"Come on, you got to get up, got to go to work, come on.. it's tuesday... just 4 more days ... you can make it... come on! open your eyes! the dog's trying to scratch his way out ...open the damn eyes!...
Ok..
You're still sleeping!...Come on girl! things ain't gonna do themselves! brush the teeth! FACE... wash the face... an idiot! Dear lord... don't look in the mirror! not yet...hurrrrrrrrrrrrry! Good... just wear what you want... but you have 5 minutes left to feed the dog and get to work...shit where's the dog! Would be better with at least one eye open...damn... ok... gonna make it... somehow... anyway... ok...sh.. shoes! ufff..."
Long story short...
Free will is no good when it comes to choosing between staying in bed and going to work and strong will doesn't always win!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
In my 30's
...it's official now. Even my bank said I can no longer have this wonderful "Below 30" account free of charge, and altough I got 30 just before last x-mas, now I must addmit - it's an end of an era.
Usually it doesn't bother me, it's just that time runs like a Road Runner (Beep! Beep!) and even though not a minute was waisted...still ...
OK
So I have a plan!
Well, maybe just starting to have a plan, but better later than never, uhm?!
So here it is.
1.
I must say, I decided not to give any of my dreams up - no matter what. But to that...well ... if Bank robbery was not a crime, it might be the best way to do that, cause countin' on a big chance in any lottery - not with my luck.
You sure remember Carrie Bradshaw. I absolutely adore her lifestyle. But let's be honest - where on earth did she got all the money to pay for it. And if that would not be a problem - all in all she got famous at some point, it would be so much easier to do it living in NYC.
Too bad, we can not all live in NY.
So what is there for us, living in some small, forgotten by God places, where dreams are the best entertainment you can have, not having to drive for 100 miles?
Well... let's see... we have all the time in the world! At least another 30 years ;))
But for now.... let's prey I'll finally get to buy me my own place.
To be continued...
Usually it doesn't bother me, it's just that time runs like a Road Runner (Beep! Beep!) and even though not a minute was waisted...still ...
OK
So I have a plan!
Well, maybe just starting to have a plan, but better later than never, uhm?!
So here it is.
1.
I must say, I decided not to give any of my dreams up - no matter what. But to that...well ... if Bank robbery was not a crime, it might be the best way to do that, cause countin' on a big chance in any lottery - not with my luck.
You sure remember Carrie Bradshaw. I absolutely adore her lifestyle. But let's be honest - where on earth did she got all the money to pay for it. And if that would not be a problem - all in all she got famous at some point, it would be so much easier to do it living in NYC.
Too bad, we can not all live in NY.
So what is there for us, living in some small, forgotten by God places, where dreams are the best entertainment you can have, not having to drive for 100 miles?
Well... let's see... we have all the time in the world! At least another 30 years ;))
But for now.... let's prey I'll finally get to buy me my own place.
To be continued...
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